Am I a blogger now?

I sometimes can find myself lost in other people's worlds through this concept of blogging. You can find advice, creative ideas, and all around funny and intriguing stories of peoples lives, thoughts and ideas. I am not one of these people or am I now? The concept of blogging is hard to wrap my brain around, is this my own online journal for me to look back on and reminisce about these times or is it a place where others will come seeking advice or a good laugh. Either which way I don't know and don't care. My life is changing fast and I have decide this will be a good place to document it. Read this or not it is truly for me. I wonder if I will find myself bring out my old school poetic self that used to be a very strong part of who I once was or will I just be a person applying thoughts on paper... oops I'm sorry.. a computer screen hoping to find a release or my own answers into my questions. In reality I think this will just be a place to dump all the words I never say out loud and will consequently come off as jabbering. Tomato-TOmAto. This is what it is ... watcha gonna do about it.

One year of motherhood has past

So Atticus, you are almost 14 months old and it's hard to believe that one year has come and gone  what feels like a blink of an eye! It's pretty crazy to think that this time last year you were only months into life outside of my belly. More remarkable than that is you and I survived to first year of parenting and being parented lol! I know and feel all the sweet, gushy, emotion you are supposed to feel after the first year, but I can't deny what a challenging, demanding, and learning experience this first year of your life has been for me. After four years + of college and everything they cram into our brains nothing was as quick learning and as much information as it was to be your mother this first year
I have learned the true appreciation for a silent room, I have learned how to change a diaper in seconds, how to make you smile, how to cook every meal even if I don't feel like cooking, I have learned the love for sleep that I never get now and never appreciated when I had the time to sleep all I wanted (except for when I was pregnant), I have learned what unconditional true love is and how important it is to express it always even when frustrated. I have learned that my lowest day is still better that most peoples best days, I have also learned that it is okay to have low days and days to myself (which I am still trying to embrace). I have learned you are probably more independent that I am and I am okay with that. I have learned to be your teacher, role model and friend. I have learned the true art of patience and how that is so important for you because you are just learning. I got a chance to teach you how to sit up, crawl, walk, sign language, talk and DANCE!
I have been there for every tear, booger, spit up, poopy diaper, messy eating extravaganza, and hug, kiss, high five, and sound sleeps. I have survived my first year of motherhood and as dirty as my shirts get, as tired as my eyes feel, and as destroyed my house always looks as I swim in toys... it is the best life and I wouldn't trade it. For every negative the positives of just your smile or excitement to see me oveRULES it all. You are so happy most days and the most loving and friendly baby I know.

For mothers just starting out, or for the mothers who are on my timeline and feel the whoa and joy of succeeding in this first year just realize these children are priority numero uno and time may seem forever but in a blink the will be grown. For new mothers take each day at a time, for the 1 yr experience mothers take each minute as it comes and for all other mothers hold on the each second because we can't stop time, but we can try to hold on as long as we can!